Along the Way

Well, it is Saturday morning again. By what I chose to wear this morning, I can see I am hoping for a "Saturday-ish" day. Jeans that are a bit too baggy and my long-sleeved Subaru shirt made of recycled materials I received for "free" after purchasing my $26,000 car! Chunky, furry slippers cover my feet, and my hair, teeth and face have not yet been combed, brushed, and washed. My diffuser next to me is making bubbling water sounds while shooting up particles of Wild Orange, Lime, Motivate and Elevation essential oils, while the fake fireplace behind me puts on a show of flames accompanied by a strong, constant hum.

Brent is readying himself to go to the Chrysler dealer, where his truck's airbags will be replaced due to a recall. I will soon be on my way with him.

I long to settle into this day, into my life, but I find it challenging. Life is always moving ahead, and I always feel a little behind.

I once noticed on a hiking trail I kept saying to myself, "Why can't I keep up with Brent?" Then I switched it around and said, "Why can't he keep 'back' with me?" as though one of us were wrong for being right where we were on the trail. Often I notice that unsettledness as I navigate my days. I should be faster, I should be slower, I should be anywhere other than where I am now.

Maybe I am supposed to be right here, right now, writing my Saturday Morning reflection in my sloppy clothes.

Even as I type, the letters are on their way to the next word, the next line, the next paragraph. Soon I will be on my way to the auto dealership. Then on my way back. Rivers flow, life flows, nothing is stagnant. I suppose we are always "on the way" to somewhere. Maybe I can accept rather than resist the motion, notice the current, and pay attention to what I see, along the way. Maybe Love carries me--I'm certain it does. And even though Love is taking me places, to the next thing and the next thing, I can be still and unflailing as I rest in its embrace.

Today I will let Love usher me into each moment.

And that sounds like just where I am supposed to be, being still in Love, while Love moves me--along the way.

Diane Mann, 2018